The art of procrastinating.

 I was more than aware that I had these blogs to write before tonight ended. I already knew what I wanted to write about, I had all the thoughts already arranged in my head. Did I wait till last minute because my birthday was yesterday and I didn't want to have to focus? Did I wait till last minute because I'm just lazy? The truth is, even I don't know why I waited. Maybe a little bit of me is aware I work better under pressure and I knew I could still get these done and with full effort. 

Some part of me thinks procrastination is a disease. Why do I let myself become so stressed when I know I could just start work now and finish it later? Stress is so common in my life that when I push important things off till last minute, I almost feel complete when I'm stressed. I spent my whole junior high career not caring about school and my grades. That seriously took a huge toll on my life. it made me unhappy, I felt bad about myself, and deep down I knew I could do better. 

Once I started high school, I started to care about my grades so much more. I did all my homework in class if we had time. if we didn't have time, I would do it first thing when I got home. I knew that it was important to get all of my stuff done if I wanted to get into a good college and pursue my life dreams. I got here, and here I am procrastinating again. I think maybe the reason I procrastinate so much in college is because I fell into a huge slump moving away from home. Being apart from my mom who would say she's gonna kick my butt if I don't get my homework done. I know within the next couple weeks I'll start paying more attention and get my work done. I care about my grades and I know that now in college, this is our futures we are messing with.