Changing your own life.

I try to think that starting college has been as hard on other people as it has been on me. I'm only an hour away from home but sometimes I feel like I'm a universe and a half away. Throughout high school and changing schools, I never had a hard time making friends. I feel like my life always came easy. I was so good at school, I never had a weekend without plans, I worked every day after school and loved it. Now that I'm in college, I feel like everything is different. 

I knew coming into college that the whole world was going to feel different. You are completely responsible for what you're life becomes. If you don't want to go to a class, you don't have to. It's not like high school where mom or dad has to call you in sick after begging them for an hour to let you stay home. I don't have to be home by 10 pm sharp anymore because my friends just live right upstairs. I guess college could be hard for me because I feel as if I'm lacking structure. I love it here, I love doing my own laundry, I love staying up late, I love having freedom. But I'm slacking too hard and I feel like it can only be my fault. 

At the beginning of semesters in high school I would always slack. I knew I could pick myself up right away when I did. I expected college to be the same, but here, when you fall off your horse it takes a lot longer to get back up. Starting next semester, I'm going to try my hardest to stay on track with the things I need to get done. I need to get back responsibility and set myself a decent time to go to bed. Instead of worrying about friends so much, I'm going to set aside a time every day to get all my work done by myself. I will get there because I know my dream career depends on me being responsible.